so don’t expect a lot of new music from me right away this year - i’ve got a lot finished and waiting to be released (an ambient split with malcom from the summer, my band’s ep, the rea + arrange ep, and seeing little ghosts reissue). i’m incredibly excited about all of this, and i’m hoping to play a lot of live shows (teen suicide and possibly rea) this spring/summer. that said, i can’t say for sure when i’ll have new music to release. i haven’t been able to write anything at all lately that i’ve wanted to for ‘ricky eat acid’ and the stuff i have finished (which i’m personally so proud of) certainly isn’t the kind of thing most of you would expect from me. i’m not even sure how many people would be into it.
to put it in perspective - seeing little ghosts was the first time i’ve really been very happy with something i’ve done, and that’s the direction i want to go in. the ambient split with malcom further continues this.
as for right now, i’m going to release probably the only song i’ve been happy with in months. it’s called “so i will not fall deep into the earth” and it’s a 9 minute track comprised only of my voice and, at the very end, some very strange guitar. this track characterizes my own little half-serious genre that i’ve dubbed “spacepunk”
i’ll quote the bandcamp description here
this is spacepunk. it’s a genre. it’s not a serious genre, but it’s a serious genre. there is no point to spacepunk. it’s anti-trendy. there are no driving electronic rhythms - it lacks any post-rave, post-internet, future-pop beats. there’s nothing really. that’s it.
there’s nothing. it’s music that evokes the feeling of floating endlessly and eternally through darkness. it’s inspired as much by the romanticized and unscientific idea of space as it is by sleep, heavy opiate use, and the feeling of being alone in bed, half awake on a rainy day. it’s a very sad feeling. it’s not nostalgic, but it still makes me miss everything.
it’s nothing, really. you could characterize it as drone, sometimes, or ambient. i’m not really sure. it’s fun, but it’s not.
it’s not post-internet, it’s post-life.
“space is the place”
so check it out, check out spacepunk (i know adam and kelsie have both experimented with it too, even getting a few blogs and the like to recognize spacepunk as a “growing movement”), don’t take anything too seriously ever, and please, download this track if you like it. it’s free.
i love all of you guys. i don’t know where i’ll go next and i don’t know how long it’ll take me to figure it out and make it happen, so thanks for putting up with all of this.
i don’t make music to get any kind of attention, make any money, or really do anything else. i make music because i have to make music to survive, and i don’t know what i’d do without it. i’d love to say that because of that i didn’t care what anyone thought, but i do. i want people to like it, i understand when people hate it, and i’m so happy when people love it. that said, it’s not like i’ll ever stop doing it, no matter how discouraged i might get.
i write a ton of music, i realize this, and it probably looks kind of bad to some people, but i don’t do it because i want attention for it, and i don’t release everything i write (i actually release so little of it). i just am always trying to get better at it because it’s something i love, and the only way to improve is to constantly be trying new things and pushing myself.
thanks for putting up with all of this. it’s also 430 am so i realize not a lot of you are even awake, most likely. i’ll try and reblog this again tomorrow sometime.
<3 - ur pal - sam
(click through to download from bandcamp)
Everything that I was going to say was already said, twice over. This is amazing.